After rehoming the insects in August 2013 I was left with a trio of Terra's eggs; I kept these, hoping that I would be well enough to care for the insects once they hatched. Eventually two did hatch and grew up well, being fed mostly on eucalyptus. One needed help moulting but recovered swiftly and became quite tame for a time (although she later grew up into a feisty creature!).
While these sisters have been doing well physically, I have not. I've made quite some progress by the grace of God however I have found it difficult to maintain myself and my other charges (plants and animals alike); over the new year I experienced the worse ME flare up I've had in at least a year and am currently recovering from its, to be frank, destruction.
Now that the sisters are adults and of egg laying age, they are eating far more than I can actually provide. I'm barely able to leave the house once a week now, so the burden of collecting food falls on my already strained parents. This, combined with a variety of other circumstances, situations and general God-driven developments and decisions, helped me make the tough decision to put an end to the legacy.
I am disappointed and saddened but ultimately if I cannot provide for the animals I keep, I should not keep them. I'm also amazed at how, despite having kept these feelings to myself, God moved through people to bring forward opportunities to rehome the insects and eggs in my possession.
The two ladies and the eggs laid by the older sister have been donated to the biology department of a local private school; the dept. head was in need of new stock and actually approached my mother, who works at the school, with a discussion about this particular stick insect species. My mother had no idea I was considering rehoming them, and I had never met the dept. head, so when mum sent me an email explaining this conversation at work I was very surprised.
My immediate thought was that God was moving in this situation to alleviate responsibilities I simply couldn't uphold. It's been a very, very difficult thing to accept that, as a 21 year old, I'm unable to care for an animal like a stick insect. The other animals and plants in my care are actually doing really well, this could be due to the fact that I can buy what's needed for them online, but the stick insects are another matter entirely.
I've found myself somewhat ashamed of not being able to do this simple thing, but I cannot live that way and Jesus does not want me to; I need to accept that sometimes I simply can't maintain something. That happens a lot in a world filled with ME symptoms, I've just been down this road too many times. I've tried my best, I've tried to endure, but in the end I quite frankly cannot consistently give the ETs the care they need and deserve.
I really want to thank everyone who has supported me and followed this blog; it's been an absolute delight to watch these creatures grow and change. I'll always be grateful to God for that.